Originally Posted by tyler129 (Post 254052)

you said you were 24. make up your mind. which one is it.

Originally Posted by ciscox3 (Post 255361)

I wish i could give all of you guys pieces of my ego and confidence about everything and anything. LOL

Originally Posted by ciscox3 (Post 255360)

Stop being a douche, you douche. Time isn't static you know, moron.

Originally Posted by ciscox3 (Post 255361)

I wish i could give all of you guys pieces of my ego and confidence about everything and anything. LOL

Originally Posted by yorkie33403 (Post 255261)

I finished school this year,have no ID anymore so can't go to college,was going to move to NM to be able to at least have ID but asked everyone on here for help on where to move cheaply and got no response.So to sum up i am 19 with my brother and sister legal and so stuck.Thank God for you who could go to college.my mom is trying desperatley to get the money for NM but works everyday on heart and blood pressure medicine and i am not complaining.

Originally Posted by Lost Generation (Post 254708)

Hey man I'm from china too, like you said things are very competitive overthere, especially the job market because china's overwhelmed cheap colleges. Possibly, if rubio's bill don't work out, I'm leaving early next year too when I get my AS. Some network in the family got me hook up on this teaching job in a private school over in Fujian

Originally Posted by ciscox3 (Post 255361)

I wish i could give all of you guys pieces of my ego and confidence about everything and anything. LOL

Originally Posted by meehx3 (Post 254046)

hey guys, i really need to vent.

After high school, i sort of lost my identity. People tend to consider college as the best time of their life, but life after high school was a nightmare for me.

I was happy in high school. i was social, unafraid, and unburdened. thus, i was well liked, and i had many friends.

College,
the nightmare for me wasn't the amount of school work, but was seeing people i know move on with their lives with such ease. Being able to go to school with financial aid, to work in large companies, take extravagant vacations, meet significant others, get married.

all things i'm not able to do.

i worked a job i hate all 4 years of college to pay for school, afraid to meet people i knew because i didnt want to tell them what i was doing with my life. Afraid to meet opposite sex b/c i can't deal with the fact that they might not want to be with me after they find out i'm illegal. ashamed of myself, at the same time. ashamed of the fact that i'm ashamed of myself.

i slowly started to see myself change. sometimes, i sit by myself and i ask myself, who are you and what's your life goal. i think and i think, but no answer will ever surface. i see no future for me, and that frightens me.

A year ago, i decided to leave, but my 80 year old grandma told my mom that i have no future in my home country with a BA since there is a lot of oversea people already there. i was encouraged to get a higher degree.

This year, i started my MS degree and i started to see myself in the same cycle i saw myself a year ago. everyday is the same routine, work, school, home. repeat. As opposed to the cycle i was in after graduation, work, home. repeat. and i think to myself "what a wonderful life". bitterness overwhelms me.

everyday, i slap a smile on my face to go to work, honestly i'm tired. i'm unhappy and near borderline depressed. i keep on telling myself 2 more semesters and your free. but life after leaving this country is also a question mark. i dont fit in with people from my home country. and honestly, sometimes i don't like the way they carry themselves and is embarrassed at time when i see tourists from my country. however, i dont think my home country is bad, i just think they have a lot to learn about etiquette.

i see no light at the end of the tunnel. its pitch black.
i'm 25 this year and i never been in a relationship. can you believes this. while many of my friends are getting engaged, married, married with kids, i have nothing. my parents thinks that marriage to USC is the answer to all my problems, but i can't even get in a relationship because i feel that illegal and USC spells disaster because the USC will always think your in it for the papers, regardless.

I'm definitely leaving after getting my MS. for sanity's sake. i need to leave before i jump off a bridge or something.

thanks for reading my rant. its good to get some stuff off...

Originally Posted by spartanwarrior (Post 257370)

I feel the same way...this life here is very depressing. Except at least you have a bachelor's. I would have left for my home country a long time ago with a bachelor's. I tried going to college but i only did 6 credits when i still had a shitty part time job. I feel like i lead a different life from anyone else. Can't drive, very hard to get with a girl because i have my status in my mind all the time and for anything else i do. It's like something that is always kicking me when i'm already down all the time. I have decided to wait for december and leave. With whatever i have, very little money and try to make my life where i was born. I am seriously tired of this bs.
i would leave right now but i hear in nov arms/modified dream act may pass
what really pisses me off is when an american citizen asks me for money in the street! really!! aarrgg
i also advice everyone else to stop this wait game and leave and let this country get full of people it wants....gang members