Actually, I Do workout. During the winter I do swimming at school and the spring time I do track.. and yes, it helps A LOT. Especially afterwards, and I even go to sleep like I used to before I had any of this crap.
I'm also a music addict. I have an ipod and I can be on it the whole day. Sometimes I day dream with it a lot... that's why I don't like it, because after a while I feel like "bllaaahhh" listening to music and daydreaming things that are not real.
It is also weird, I just really need to keep my head so busy that I can't think about anything else... that's how I need to keep myself so I won't get so crazy. I'm 17 years of age, and sometimes I do have coherent thoughts and I know I'm too young being so "worried". Its just that there are some times when I'm totally alone that it gets freaky.
Like on Friday's evenings, Saturdays, and Sunday mornings. I hate the sunset... as random as that might sound, I hate because it reminds me of how alone I am, its so dark, and if its during the weekend I know its time that my "friends" might be at a party...
And lastly.... that you all, I really appreciate it. I didn't feel a bit comprehended for a time... I guess its because the therapist that talks to me isn't illegal (the same with other people) and they just see it as me not wanting to do anything. If I was legal...HAH! I would be doing so many things, starting by working as an intern in a Credit Union (sadly, I won't be able to apply there because of my status lol )