WOW. sounds harsh. but u have to have hope for dream. sometimes u might put urself along with other things down. and im sure other times ur very confident something good will happen. its part of being a human being with feelings and a brain. i too have been through a tough childhood and now adulthood. i do get mad, disapointed, and sad that i cant do nothing about this situation, but for some reason i know something will happen. youll see!