Not seeing your parents must be terrible especially when you are receiving their financial help and you feel like you are not reciprocating in any way. Since you can't give anything back to them you need to be a little bit more patient and keep educating yourself, this way when you receive the benefits from the Dream Act you'll have the opportunities of giving back to your family, mostly the pride of you being successful and not giving up on this struggle.

I also feel lost from a cultural stance. I don't feel Mexican nor American simply because at the time I came in I was very aware of my cultural values, a lot of them clashed with the American ones and as time passed those values I had no longer served a real purpose therefore I became a strange mutation of what the Japanese would call a hikikomori. Sometimes it's easier to see yourself as an international student but when different situations in the social medium arise this simply isn't applicable, what a shitty game LOL.

My social life is completely obliterated but I find the ways to keep myself sane, mostly reading and exercising inside my home, during vacations I can go weeks without literally going out, you get used to it... You need to become addicted to something that will keep you entertained in this time of waiting that at the same time will yield positive results in your life, personally I am addicted to learning programming languages and real life languages.

Rest assured that the Dream Act will go through at an indefinite point in your lifetime xD, although you need to have an alternate plan that will be carried out in case the situation does not get resolved within a personal time frame. I am not going to let the lack of a little number limit my liberties during the most socially active period of my life for much longer (two-year limit and I am out.)

I think one's own success is defined by personal choice and not necessarily by the world around one. Hell, I could have married a citizen a couple of years ago and gotten over this situation but I chose to take the lengthy way simply because this decision would not comply with my personal beliefs and personality type. I might as well have departed for Mexico and initiated a normal life years ago but I decided to stay because of this "dream", alas I am starting to believe that this dream could leave me dreaming for many more Obamas to come.

I think this is a very good time for putting feelings aside, thinking rationally, and reviewing your options. Whatever you do remember to always keep yourself motivated until you achieve your goals.

I wish you the very best of luck,

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