I have been regreting it for a few days now. My aunt died two days ago, I ahven't seen her in 20 years, and by the sound of my father on the phone I realized that he won't be around for much longer. If I had a time machine to 1989 I would have stayed back there. Last two days i thoguht about going back and being with my dad and just applying to canada from there but I am too weak to do so. Family is so important. I regret that my 22 year old sister does not know anyone back home. I also want someone to blame. I am just praying that I get to see my dad one last time.