I don't like where this thread is going. I understand the frustration and the fear and all the possible emotions that you may be going through because of your situation, but you can't let it get you down. As an adult, you have already made the decision to stay in the country, so don't sit and moan about how unfair life is, go out and live. And as hef107 and others have said, have a plan B, in case things don't work out for us. You're entitled to feel hurt and afraid but don't let these feelings take over your life.