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Originally Posted by NewGen.011
I need some psychological support. I know this may not be in everybody's minds, but I just need to know if what I'm afraid of feeling is betrayal. Ever since I've been aware of my status, I've defended my home country, Mexico, from peoples' attacks on its politics, culture, economy, etc. Recently, with all these cartels and Drug War, I'm beginning to have second thoughts of what I think about Mexico. Is it betrayal for me to start having some kind of resentment for Mexico, looking at it as a, idk, poverty-stricken country with an unstable government. It's like I've forgotten its beauty. Idk. My feelings for the US are mixed as well. People like myself are not welcome and have been humiliated by the USC at least at one point in their lives.
It's a stupid thought, I know. But I feel like I don't have a country anymore. Mexico, because I don't know it and I have different thoughts about it now. And the US, because I'm not welcome and frowned upon by society.
When I told my dad about this, it looked like he was hurt. I don't want to hurt him talking about my country in a bad way.
I just don't know what to do anymore. What do you guys think? I'm tired of living this way.  |
It looks as though you maybe at a crossroads w/ regards to what is your country vs what you call home and are they one in the same.
I am not from Mexico,but with my home country I try to establish the positive points to Americans that I know and vice versa with Family or friends overseas about the positives of America.It is ok not to like something about a country[even if it is your home country] but should it hurt someone's feelings[especially if the person is considered close to you] perhaps you should keep it to yourself in that particular case until you think you maybe able to phrase it better.
Enhance and experience the positives about both,life is too short for anything else imo.