Its hard to celebrate anything when you have nothing, food is a challenge to get and any decent meal would be just way too much and a waste both on time and money, gifts are a challenge to get, and getting around in the holidays is a risk with more checkpoints and higher police presence looking for drunk drivers.

My family usually celebrate thanksgiving by either buying some cheap food somewhere and eating that, maybe a couple pounds of turkey or whatever.

In either case, this thanksgiving is going to be different, my sister and her fiancee will be here and they are going to cook the turkey, make the stuffing, all that sort of stuff, and my parents will be making natilla and black cake (yes, I know, its not traditional, but we don't know how to make any of the traditional foods, they are good tasting foods though and all made from scratch).

And yet, I have a feeling I will feel rather awkward as I always do, just because celebrating anything feels so.... ironic ATM.

Seriously the recent trend my family has taken towards celebrating anything has been smaller, poorer, cheaper and more... awkward and weird, but maybe I am just getting to americanized and forgetting the latino way of celebrating stuff when there are few people to celebrate with.