I'm in the same boat as you....my visa expired about the same time you did.

reading your thoughts, I felt that I'm reading my own diary. I was depressed, suicidal, as my dreams came crashing down. I no longer drive since I'm scared I'll be caught driving without a license, and I have to make up BS excuses when people ask me why I don't drive anymore. I lost my boyfriend coz he couldn't handle my depression (we dated before I lost my visa and I was then a cheerful girl and he was not ready to handle the depressed me that I become)...


my suggestion is that you go see a therapist. if you go to college, there's usually a free one available to you in the counseling office. I'm getting better and I'm starting to be more optimistic. Like you, I also don't want to go back to the Asian country that I'm from so I'm thinking of moving to Canada since its not that different than the US, culture wise. I'm determined to graduate top of my class so I can maybe get scholarships at grad schools there. goodluck!