Just thought I shared this.

I normally try to not think about my situation and rather look into ways of improving my life and move forward. Today for some reason was the exception. Spent almost all day thinking and whining about how fkd up life as been to me. Life gives you one thing but not the other. You can't have it all. Wondering why my parents decided to go back to mexico even knowing that my mother was pregnant. They were young and stupid. Couldn't wait 9 months. Thinking about why in the fkn world my grandpa never sponsored my mom after he became a US citizen, instead he decided to become a drunk low life. Those 9 months would have given my life a huge change. I guess they never thought they had to come back to the US after that time. Maybe I would have been better being raised in Mexico and going for a career. You would ask..How come you don't go back?? Simple. This is the country I know. This is the country that made me dream since I was in elementary about becoming a teacher, a doctor, a race car driver, a police officer etc. The sad thing is that like many of you. The US won't accept me and considers me a shadow, a ghost, a statistic, or as I call it A LIMITED HUMAN. These kids born here have no idea of the opportunities they are born with. That magic paper that opens almost all doors in this country and those 9 digits that incorporate you into a society with limitless opportunities. For now, there is only one thing that makes me happy and will make me stay here no matter what. I won't let my kids go through the same bullshit I am going through. They will be US citizens with 9 magic digits and a paper that does magic as well. One day I will tell them about all this. I am pretty sure they will think that it wasn't that much of a big deal. Yes, my kids will be US citizens with the heart, the strength and the desire to become a good member of this society just like their father. Have a good day everyone. God bless you all.