First of all are you even a Dreamer? Because you sound like the average USC who assumes I did this for shits and giggles and who thinks there is no point in me going to school anyway because I cant do anything with a degree. Which is not true. Anyway, I will answer some questions. And I really am not the only undocumented person doing this I know of 3 others and that's saying a lot considering I don't know much girls.

I was tired of looking for a job for a year with no luck. I went to an online high school plus the shyness is why I have no friends for "hookups" (no pun intended) and the few that I do have are in industries where they would run an extensive check.

I have been housecleaning since a young age with my mom but 50 dollars when I get lucky enough to land said gig is not enough. Dog grooming, babysitting are all things I have thought of before but have not been able to find work there.

As much as I hate it I decided to do the whole sugar daddy thing because I could not spend another day at home doing nothing. Yes I am shy and it makes what I do harder but almost anyone who does what I do will tell you its 99% acting and1% appearance. You have to take on a whole new persona, most don't even use their real names. There is no soliciting for money straight up there is more tact involved. Because of the law people use words like "donation" or "some help". The men are older and know that a relationship between a 20 and 50 year old will have money involved, common sense. Yes its disgusting, I know your probably thinking that. And I am not "carefree" about getting stds but its all about how you "play the game" Some people my age go to the club and sleep around. I am with the same 2 guys for almost a year. They might be seeing other people but the point is that I am not and always use protection. Its a calculated risk. As far as "have you imagined if someone blackmailed you for your status into giving them free sex?"That would be breaking the first cardinal rule: "a trick is a trick nothing more". So why would I trust a trick with something that I don't even trust my closest friends with? You have to have street smarts/common sense.

I am constantly looking for other jobs while I do this (even coming here to ask what other people are doing) I am always on my hustle, I think anyone who is a dreamer can relate to that. Always looking for gigs the only up side to what I do is that these gigs are more constant.

What I hate even more than what I do is what you think I should do "get your life in order". I wish I could drop 6k on a lawyer or invest 250k on a business and get papers. And I do not want a boyfriend to "take me in" relationships can fail and then what? Also, I do not want a boyfriend only because he has a house or place or job. Making money is how I am putting my life in order. I am not doing a 4yr I am going into a certificate/2yr program. The certificate will teach me a skill to be an independent contractor (no ssn involved) in a high demand field where I live and a few extra courses ontop of that will make it a 2yr degree (no necessary but nice). So yes, I can and will use my certificate/degree.

I do not want to glamorize any of what I am doing but it has helped me so far no matter how much I don't like it. Everyone has said to network, I will try harder and look more into restaurant jobs. Anything consistent would be better than what I do even if it doesn't pay the same