thanks guys for the support im trying to keep my head up my conditions are scary and im trying my best everyday to think positive and say to myself and god to let me at least live to have ead and enjoy life abit more before i leave this earth my conditions over time are changing the way my body funcations and i have 55 percent of my kidneys left and i hope i live to be atleast 60 or 70 years old lol or older but i just want to feel perfection "meaning feel no pain and just a normal body" before i die and want to leave a mark on this earth of my creativity in fashion. im study ing to be a fashion designer in FIDM college in downtown LA california but came back to texas because of money and ead expired ect. thanks again everyone.