Thank you Swim19 and dreamact9090 for your comments.

I kept myself very busy these last 2 years, "living my dream". I have my own apartment, I just bought a car (not the one I wanted but it's reliable and better than all the pcs of crap I've driven before). I've been working full time and going to school full time. I had to switch to a second shift position to be able to complete my CMA internship hours. I quit smoking, I passed my certification test and I started going to the gym.

I guess now that I have free time, I have way too much time to think and it's all negative things. I fear I might be entering a depressed state. And as much as I tell myself "Not now! Your doing great! Don't give up! Keep going!", I agree with my thoughts. They make complete sense.

I am a loser. I'll never have a boyfriend or husband or kids. I don't have friends. I do drive people away. I have this thing where I've been stepped on and bullied when I was younger. Now I don't take crap from anyone and it's affecting my job. Let's say for example a coworker comes and asks me a question and while I'm explaining it to them, they interrupt me. I see it as a sign that they have zero respect for me and from that moment forward I stop talking to them completely without thinking about it twice. It's not good. I need to change or something needs to change.

What I don't know is... Is this something a psychologist can help me with?? Should I seek counseling?