I'm married but I'm miserable. It takes so much out of me everyday being with her. I haven't applied because I keep telling myself that I won't be around and I'll leave soon. She is very emotionally abusive and controlling and threatens to kill herself often, if I leave idk what would happen. I also have very little self esteem, and I'm pretty sure I'd be alone forever if I left her. I was secretly hoping SC ended DACA so I would have excuse to leave since I wouldn't be able to pay all the bills.