focus on yourself and the care and love you deserve. There are so many good people out there, someone worth will eventually make it your way. In the mean time though, do try to enjoy and love the blessing of yourself. It's ok to feel this down sometimes, I do too. Just remember not to stay in that place for too long, come out, go out and get some fresh air and sun if possible regularly. Direct your time in taking care of yourself. Im stuck waiting on 601A approval, and 8 years at the same job unable to change because of this process. However, I try not to devote my time and energy on those things I have no control over. I instead try to focus on what I have, my health, my income, time to myself, a few family members who really matter to me.