don't give up.

I've struggled immensely with mental health myself. Your pain is valid. It hurts to be illegal and have no rights. But, there's other things in life worth living for. I am sure you have a family and family members and friends who would miss you very much. Stop focusing so much on status and what will happen. Focus on right now. Feel good now.

Try to live the best life you can live. Focus on your hobbies. Read the bible. Learn some skills. Bang some chicks. Live life.

There's more to life than being a Dreamer. Heck, forget this whole dream thing. Stop dreaming and start living.