Going to college in this country is hard even for American citizens. Now imagine for us? When you don't feel motivated enough think of all the people who had to pay thousands of dollars because they had to pay as international students. I've seen brilliant people who were not able to attend college because they were undocumented and had to support a family. I don't think you are ready for college... I've seen people like you and they don't succeed, maybe this is not the best time. How did you do in high school? You need to be super motivated to succeed.
I'm sorry for the dreamers who want to be doctors or something. They really have it hard, but I don't you want to be a doctor, do you? Do you have any idea what you want to be?