oh yeah ofcourse, but the problem is my family ...that 10 year ban man is a killer, not being able to see my family for 10 years...they are the most important people i've had here...very close. And if my illegal status here affects my life forever, then imagine leaving without getting that settled here...And although i know some german, i don't know enough to survive xP. And i know how the system works here...germany, not so much. There are just too many sharp ends it seems...But come 5 years if nothing happens, i just can't stay here. My future depends on it.