Dude...

Met the girl of my dreams and we were together for some time, we lived together and worked together, we were like we had met before in another life time it was incredible, and we couldn't be together because of this motherfucking bullshit, we both attempted suicide because of this bullshit, 3 years ago, we are both alive and apparently she moved on and i got a career, but i know for sure she still thinks about me.

Fucking uncertainty is unreal, i dont even know what the fuck to do with my life, i dont even know if im ever going to see her again, im killing myself working 7 days 12+ hours, gotta keep this shit from taking over me. I just go right to sleep as soon as i get home. I get attacks every now and then when the thoughts take over, avoid medications as much as possible or you will become dependent on them and fuck yourself even more. Distract yourself from this bullshit reality, go to school or work a lot like i do.