OP, Life is what we make of it. No one owes us anything, not your family, not this government, not this country. You must keep that in mind, and find your purpose in life. Don't ever compare yoursef to others because your struggle has made you into what you are today. Imagine, your perfect all american next door neighbor, if tomorrow they have to deal with a situation like ours, I think they would fall apart! Do not be a victim of your situation, because the only thing we have is our will power and perseverance. Keep on fighting, my friend.