I feel the same way buddy. Walking on eggshells and feeling like you have to always be 100% perfect because at the most minimal mistake you can get kicked out, is no way to live. I am gonna try to stick around for a few more years, but if there is no solution for us by then, I think I would rather go back to my home country. I don't wanna live in a golden cage forever and waste my young years without traveling and living the life I truly want to live.