Wow! Glad im not 2 unique!

First, I thank God for directing me to this site! I had no idea there were ppl who could relate to my situation & after reading some of the stories ppl have shared, I feel moved to share my own. My story is similar to the many young bloods who share my diffulculties, but it has many of its own "uniqueness"... so Ill try to keep it light

You know how you read some stories that have the line "America is the only home I know.." ? Well I can truly say if America's not my home, then I might as well stake my claims on an uninhabited island. I came to Hawaii before I even turned one. Now let me share with you the "uniqueness" of my situation. My Mom is a born citizen of Tonga, my Dad is a born native of Fiji, & lil' Ol me... was born in Western Samoa. I carry my parents in my blood, but sadly there home are not my own. When I was 3 my dad returned back to Fiji. My mother raised me after that, but sadly she was deported when I was 12 yrs old. So I was left to my extended family, who im very greatful for! They've made me the person I am today. Head strong, observant, & affecting people with whatever mood im in, LoL!

After I graduated from High School, I finally saw the severity of the obstacles of being an undocumented immigrant. I wanted a chance to make something of myself... to test my abilities. But it was one road block after another in my journey to success. I felt angry & didnt see why I was given a functioning brain & not be given a chance to use it! I was frustrated to the point where I wanted to go back to the foreign home I was born in. I explained to my friends & family how life here is hopeless for me, I rather try to make a life in Samoa.

My Aunt told me this afterwards, "You feel hopeless around ur own friends & family? How would you feel in a place where you know no one?" That got me thinking, I imagined myself @ the Airport in Western Samoa with luggage in hand looking for a job & home upon arrival. A place were Samoan is the spoken tongue, while mines is pure english. A place where the economy is dependant on agricultural export, nothing that has to do with my "dreams". Ive long given up on this idea, but it still in the back of my mind.

Believe me Ive been thru Hell & back because of the many obstacles thrown @ me because of my "Status". Ive rebelled because I felt hopeless. Ive been so depressed, that I had no will to get out bed. Ive lost trust in ppl because they just gave up on me. How hopeless can a person get before they say "NO MORE"!! Ive reached my bottom & I can only look up for now on. Whatever the outcome of the DREAM act or my future, I have to see the positive in everything...

So thank you for everyone that shared there story... you've made my life so much lighter. Just knowing there's ppl out there who understand, thats the most I can ask for!!

"Ive rebelled because I felt hopeless. Ive been so depressed, that I had no will to get out bed. Ive lost trust in ppl because they just gave up on me."


I couldn't agree with you more.. it's like.. I never knew it was possible to feel so completely alone and empty. And losing trust in people is also true... I understand how telling people might be comforting at first, because you want them to understand why you can't do anything and all that stuff.. but after a while I don't want to tell another soul anything because it's like, you know they're not going to help you anyway so why tell them.

For me, I came when I was 8 and been here for the past 16 years. I was with a citizen bf for almost 5 years and asked him to help me by getting married and he said no- and this was the one person who knew all my pain, this person would see me cry all the time, and it was a shock that he said no.

From there I would rather not tell anyone, because that way I can still like them. When I tell them and a situation comes up where they can help (even with just offering a ride) and they don't then I can't say "well they don't know".. I dont know.. does that make sense??? haha..

anyway.. keep your head up !

"From there I would rather not tell anyone, because that way I can still like them. When I tell them and a situation comes up where they can help (even with just offering a ride) and they don't then I can't say "well they don't know".. I dont know.. does that make sense??? "

LoL! 2 me it doesn't make sense, but iDo understand. I hate being dependant on other ppl. Esp. if they can really help me. So recently, im trying to do things on my own. Just the feeling that you have the capabilities to do something, but you cant! is soooooo frustrating!

Also, I only tell ppl who are very close to me. But I dont expect them to help me, if they want to, go right ahead!! but 4 now imma do things on my own.. oh!! & with help & support of members here!

Our stories are truly one of our resilience against adversity. Its a shame that most people dont realize just giving a ride is a an act of compassion. Ive learned to trust in my own resilience and the thought of immigration reform being on a global stage, the tought of us all being citizens of planet earth, thats whats kept me going. Trust and believe in the higher power within yourself.

Wow, that sounds tough!

We all complain about how we don't want to go back to our home country because we don't know it, but I think you have it much worse than we do. Most of us speak the language and would be able to survive in our home country, one way or another. Not to make you feel bad, but I think you're proof that there is always someone who's got it tougher and we should be thankful for what we have. You seem to be very strong. Don't give up hope.

We've all been through days/weeks/months were we could see no reason to get out of bed. I went through that for a year. Eventually, I had to accept that life is like the way it is, and moping around doesn't change anything. I'm glad you have finally realized that and are looking foward.

I found that my faith got me through a lot, and I'm thankful for that.

Here's something to make you feel better: You live in Hawaii. I live in Oklahoma.

haha. Welcome!