I regret moving back to Brazil

My family doesn't accept me for who I am. Everyone is just so fucking annoying about food here. I don't eat meat anymore and everyone keeps bothering me about it. I thank my grandmother everyday for her food but she still bitches at me almost everyday for not wanting to eat meat or fried foods. How about the rest of the family that don't eat vegetables? When she cooks carrots I'm literally the only one who eats it. She says I complain about her food which I don't. My dad too. Nonstop all day long "eat this eat that eat more drik this". What the fuck is wrong with people? Why can't they mind their own business about what I chose to eat?

And the drinking. Can't drink and they call my mother to snitch on me. They keep talking down to me saying they're embarrassed at me for going to a local bar here. The people at the bar are nicer than anyone in my family. I go there to have a drink and socialize. I don't get drunk often and i know my limits.

And my dad recently told me to convince my mom to leave my cat behind in the US. The same dad that abandoned me in the US and didn't speak to me for 15 years, now wanted me to do the same to my cat. The man who abused my mother and gave her psychosis which in turn gave me childhood trauma which in turn contributed to my own psychosis. I wanted to tell him all of that but i don't really give a fuck about it anymore. I thought of killing him.

So my mother got here yesterday and she's hugging my grandmother. Meanwhile my uncle is yelling at her saying she shouldn't have come unannounced and she was gonna give my grandma a heart attack. I got so pissed at him for yelling at my mom so i told him to back off. Then he started calling me a drunkard, "why don't you go tell your mom how much you've been drinking. People in the steets are talking about you already". So i walked away. Then i heard him yell at my mom again. so i went back and told him "you know what we abandoned everything to come back here and be with our grandma and this is how you treat my mom?" He then put his hand on my chest and pushed me back. I saw blood. I flew on top of him and was gonna break his nose. Luckily my aunt got between us and i only hit his mouth. He went crazy. I felt really bad about it afterwards. That was 3 months of frustration with this family just blew up at that moment. No one got mad at me for punching him tho. He's an asshole.

I don't know what to do anymore. I have no money. No ambitions. I had a lot of faith that moving back to Brazil and being with my family would make me happy. Now i just wanna be away from them. I've been thinking of suicide but I'm too scared. I don't know if i can hold down a job anymore. I just wanna disappear. I hate life.

The only thing keeping me going is the book I'm writing. 200 pages so far. My story about psychosis. I just think if these people know i slit my wrist in a bathtub and ran naked in the streets trying to kill myself because i thought i was possessed by the devil, they wouldn't be such assholes to me. My grandmother accused me of being a liar and manipulator once. Because she accused me of something which i swear i didn't do.

I give this fan fiction 7/10 when is part two coming out?

You have a lot of problems carni.

You really should've waited for Trump to win again to leave for brazil, assume you actually did leave.

Look into Canada/Australia. You just need a college degree plus work experience in an in demand field.

Work on your writing pal, you need to space it out, and also make it better. Just get better.

My mom is crying because of the way my family treated her. I feel extra bad now for making my mom move back. Brazil is not the problem. It's our toxic family. My aunt fabricated stories about me to piss my mom off. These people are evil.

From your description it certainly sounds like you need to get out of that Toxic situation AND also get your cat back.

Move, brazil is a big place. You can strike it big if you work hard enough.

Sell your story to Netflix, when you make bank pay me for the idea 35% of total royalties or 1 milllion usd whichever is higher. As a bonus you get the rights to use my username in your story.

Alright dude you need to get your spit personality bipolar depression checked out. Stop pushing your bullshit on us

Dude, just move to a bigger Brazilian city get a job and live ur life. Don’t waste ur time on the Brazilian hillbillies. Tell them “thank you” and appreciate the fact that they took you in when u moved back to Brazil but move on with ur life now.

So he's a spitter?

Sounds like a third world country