Life after this...

I've been in the US illegal for nearly 12 years now, and it just keeps getting worse. The thought of the Dream Act passing is so crazy to me. I am hoping for the best and that it passes, but I just can't fathom the idea that life can get easier, better.
It's like I can't even imagine what life would be like. I am so used to living a difficult life, where I have to hide, avoid attention, and be limited in every way. This is all I know.. not being able to go to college, drive, get an ID, get a job legally, or live life without feeling like I just escaped from prison or something.

I really have a hard time trying to picture how my life would be different or what it would be like to not have to worry about being illegal. To me, it's like trying to picture what life would be like being able to fly or something.

It's like death. I just do not understand it.

I'm excited, but also nervous. The possibilities will be endless. I will do whatever I want. There will be no more depending on somebody else to take care of me. I will finally be able to to be independant and not feel like I'm smooching off my parents, friends, or husband. I'll be able to be successful and productive. Wow.

Does anyone else feel almost like life will be "too easy?" lol I know it's stupid, but sometimes I think, well if my immigration situation is fixed, what is going to go wrong to take it's place? I'm not being negative, but I know life isn't perfect. This immigration crap makes my life difficult and impossible, but after it's gone..then what? That's it? Life is perfect?
So I try not to think about it because then I think, well that's my main concern right now. The one other thing that could make my life as difficult as it is now is a death in the family.. oh no. What if that's next?

I know, wtf?! hahah.

that's an interesting way of looking at it, haha. i think this situation has made us all into better people, i know it's taught me a lot.

life's gonna be better for sure, being independent is something i think we all crave. it'll get here.

regardless of what happens (whether dream passes or not) you have to live your life to the fullest and chase your passion. Whatever that may be, even if it means going back to whatever country we were in, to try our best to achieve our dreams and our goals. Even if you can't be that person (specific job or career) making the best out of life and living a fruitful life that helps others. Make the best of it and be a good person. Of course in my case that's serving the Lord

I've wondered what it'll be like to not have to worry about the simple things too lol. It won't hit me until I'm doing something mundane like driving to the store or school.

But I know after going through this we'll be able to handle just about anything that life throws our way.

EVERY DAY I think the same think you just said. Only when I think about it, I don't wonder or ask questions, I just smile. Think about it, I've been in this situation for 19 years....NINETEEN! lol, I'm 21 now and it drives me crazy. But look at the person you've become after going through this struggle, you now appreciate the things that 80% (random high percentage just to prove my point lol) of this country's population takes for granted or doesn't even acknowledge. I for one think that it has made me wiser and stronger..so when I do become documented, I will be that much of a better person. In the end nothing bad comes out of struggle and hard work. Be positive!!

WOW For real I also wonder about that every day!!

Of course it's very hard to fully understand because we've really never been introduced to American Citizen life, so we have no idea or even a little taste of how it feels like to be one.

All I can say its gonna be a huge weight off our shoulders when it finally happens. And yes of course life is going to be easy because of all we've been through... we've been through the worst and now every challenge is going to be nothing for us as compared to citizens and "anchor babies". They should be happy for their luck and not take anything for granted...

Great post, I'm so glad i found this forum that way i can acutally express my feelings. Not that i am ashmed of myself but i look at it this way,

This is a disease that we are all fighting but no one can really put themselves in the situation. Times are tuff, but i/ we keep on. Never loose hope but this year is our time to shine. Our time to really come out and be proud of who we are and will become. I do believe life will be better after this and do believe we can accomplish anything... Many take their citizenship for granted until they meet one of us. I dread to my freinds to take advantage of what they have and succeed.

Well i put a thread up on new members for others to read my story.. check it out if you have time thanks

I know! I've thought the same way like good or bad, illegal is all I've known! I don't know what I'll do with myself when I'm equal to those around me. I'm so excited because I feel like this is our year but what happens next? I mean, being illegal is a part of who I am and when that part is gone, who I am? I almost feel like I'm defined by being illegal. I really do think that life after papers will be an adventure (:

stay tuned guys good time is on the way.

I mean, it's stupid, but I'm glad I've been through this, you know? Who I am today, is a result of what I've been through. My life has been hard, but I wouldn't trade it for an easy life, because I would've been a worse person if my life had been easier. I wouldn't have compassion for those who suffer, I wouldn't understand how hard things can get. After the Dream Act passes, life will be easy, and I'll enjoy it all the more just because I know how hard it can be. I'm going to follow my passions, fight for everything I want in life, without this experience I think I would be complacent and lazy in life.

It's hard to explain, it sucks being in this situation, but I appreciate it none the less.