Self pity? - Page 2

Haha!!! you got BANNED

you're right! it all makes sense to me now! the average american thinks "the system is broken" not because of the hoops we have to jump to get citizenship, but because they think it refers to our being here takin' their jerbs' and being too lazy to "apply for the test".

instead of working to expedite the citizenship process, they're hauling ass to build fences and tie our lives down.

After reading some of the posts here, I'm surprised people reacted that way. All of the people that I've told about my situation fully understand my circumstance and hope for the best. Never once has anyone told me to stop feeling sorry for myself or anything to that effect.

I just get frustrated when people are always like why don't you do something about it. And they don't get that there really isn't much we CAN do. For me it's irritating cause my bf's parents know about my situation and they are supportive and everything but they keep thinking there's an easy way to solve it. It sort of hurt cause they kept on mentioning that the only way to maybe fix it was to leave the states, but it just sounded like they didn't want my relationship with their son to last.

Its F$% bull$^& that people think we are not trying hard enough... I cant even get a bs job because of my status... I would take the job in a heart beat right now if i could... some money is better than no money...

I haven't got much else to say, everyone here has already said everything... It happens to me all the time too. I lost count of how many times I heard the question "Why don't you just take the citizenship test? There's one, right?", so glad to know I'm not the only one. I mean, come on. If I'm still in this situation, it's cuz it's clearly not that easy.
I was talking to my Capoeira teacher and his wife once a while after class, I don't remember how the subject came up, but I sure remember how it ended. It made me feel so horrible. I tried explaining to them why it was unfair, and they kept pointing out the finger that I was here illegally and I shouldn't be, so I tried telling them I was brought here from an early age without a choice or even knowing what was happening, and it wasn't that easy. Instead of letting me finish, they simply said "But you could have left and made things right. But you're still here, still breaking the law." My heart sank and I couldn't answer them, thus staying quiet. I felt like a real criminal then, and never again talked about the subject in that academy again.

Funny how things are. I feel like I should just consider myself not important, and a burden. My dreams don't mean anything. My wish to study here and grow and become someone successful don't mean anything. They talk about leaving and finding somewhere else to live like it's such a simple answer, and so simple to do. Like we wouldn't suffer, leaving behind the country we called home our entire lives - banned from it, not allowed to come back, not even to visit. Kicked out from home.

Funny, huh? We're not human beings to some people.

My heart sank reading this. It really is a shame, all of this. This reminded me of a friend I used to have. She knows of my being an undocumented immigrant. Since the first time I told her, I thought she was the only one to ever come close to understanding my situation. Three years back she moved to Florida. We stayed good friends. During that time she really helped me through some difficult moments in my life. Many concerning with my "illegality".
She recently moved back to jersey. We went out, along with another friend, for lunch to in way celebrate her return. Unfortunately a different person came back. We started to converse on how we were doing. I told of what my reality is now. She responded by saying ,"why don't you just move back?". I didn't really know how to respond. I forgot what I said afterward. This really hit hard and it was such a blow. She said it in a manner like you described your capoeira teacher reaction as simple.

Now all one can do is keep their hopes up, smile and, if possible, find a job.

See, that's why I don't talk about my status with any of my friends. The only notable difference, in my life, between my friends and I is that I don't drive as much.

(Story time kids!!)

A little while back, a fat cow I used to talk to found out about my status (not through me) and started talking so much crap about me. Both in my face and behind my back. Stuff like, "Oh, you'll never get anywhere in life", "I know you're jealous I'm a USC", "Just go back. Congress will never pass CIR". She even started interfering with gals I had a crush on. She would blurt out, out of nowhere, that I was here illegally. She completely ruined the past year for me and continues to try and make my life a living hell even though I've stopped talking to her completely. Worry not, it's all lulz worthy now.

The moral of the story is, keep your life to yourself unless you know fer sure that it wont blow up into a parade of awesome drama.

You poor little thing. How about if we talk about over coffee?

It is sad how very few people actually understand. I have a couple of friends who are undocumented and i hate it when other people try to put them down because they don't have a license or just have a crappy job. I for one have decided that if they ever take my TPS away that i won't stay in the U.S. anymore. If i am going to go through B.S. and suffer i rather go back to my home country and suffer there. At least there i will be able to drive, join the military, do anything i want. I feel that that option is still there for me because i have lots of family in my home country so i feel that i would survive even though i have lived in the U.S. since i was 10 and have becomed very accostume to life here.