Im stuck in a very bad state of mind

Im in college, im 2 yrs behind though, I have a ssn, but my mom's labor thing was denied and now im over 21 so she cant sponsor me anyways. I am going to college, I have the money now to keep going continuously, but I get so freaked out. Everytime I read immigration news i get anxiety attacks and I feel scared of deportation. When I'm in school I look around me and I feel so different because everyone is a citizen and I'm not. Sometimes my anxiety becomes so bad that I have thoughts of just dropping out, what if for some reason something bad happens and I cant afford it anymore? Or what if I dont get a job after I graduate? Any suggestions, does anyone know what I'm feeling? Please help . . .

Yes, I totally do. I'm in FL and went through the same thing. I tried to hard to be "normal" even lived in the dorms for a year. I went to a state university for 2 years got my AA and had to transfer down to a community college because I couldn't afford it. I have an ADN (associates degree in nursing) so I'm a Registered Nurse and I cant even take the certification exam....I've stopped going to school now but I have a pretty stable job and make ok money I've been pretty lucky. Hopefully I can continue my education and life at one point in time. Don't let this get you down. Most of us are in the same situation be thankful for what you have and hopefully sometime soonish something will come up that will benefit us.

Yes, I keep telling myself this but then anxiety sets in again, I dont know what to do, everyone has talked to me time and time again, and I feel better for a little bit but then I go back to being depressed again, I cry and pray and cry and pray, I mean right now it isnt even that bad cuz im in school, I dont know what the hell is going on with me, I dont know how to change my mindset

I had something similar and without seeing someone or getting help it became severe anxiety and severe depression. The symptoms involved considerable lethargy, head aches, lack of concentration, inability to sleep at night, not eating much (eating too much is also involved with this for some people), forgetfullness, and of course excessively worried all the time. It seemed to be triggered by an anxiety attack back when I was about to start driving, the thought of driving illegally a manual transmission I had only driven for maybe 30 minutes in my life while a snowstorm was taking place outside, basically a few minutes of thinking of the situation became into hours until I realized it was 3 in the morning and I was still worrying about something I could not control.

You are in school, I would say that you seek professional help, most schools have some sort of on-site psychologists or something dealing with mental health. I strongly suggest going there and talking it out. I am sure most if not all schools would at least offer this service at a seriously decreased cost or free of charge.

Yeah but the school psychologist wont help me much unless I tell her about my situation, which i dont wanna do

I know how you feel. I don't get anxiety attacks or anything like that, but when I'm alone, and am going through the internet and go through the news and comments about immigration, I cry, when I look through schools that I could've gone to, I cry, and in the past I've had some very dark thoughts and felt like there was no way out of my situation and nobody to talk to.

Luckily, there are people I can talk to, I've talked to friends about my situation , and I even had to talk to my high school counselor about it at one point (I live in a small town, so you have to have a mandatory appointment with your counselor). I was very good at school, so when I said I would have to wait until I got money or gave another excuse, he kept on asking and trying to find solution after solution to all of my excuses until I broke down and told him. He's British, so he understood the process and understood how hard my situation was, and was so nice about it. Psychologists and counselors are meant to keep things confidential unless it's something that would be harmful against others or yourself, and in case you doubt that you can even ask them beforehand if you tell them something whether it will be confidential. But I'm no professional; that's what I know from experience and what I've heard.

Believe me, it's like a weight off of your shoulders when you can talk about it. Being apprehensive about it is understandable, it's our way of protection and preservation, so just be careful about who you talk about it with, and you should be fine. People are there to help
Good luck!

At least you have a SSN. You're a little better off than some of us.

It is frustrating I know but you cant let them win you must fight for what you deserve.... an opportunity. every time you get knocked down you NEED to stand back up or else you will let them win.

this is much better explained by rocky
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uASVzkrEKgs

Psychologists are by law not able to reveal ur status to anyone. You can feel safe by coming out to a psychologist or counselor .

the only exception is if they feel that you are a danger to yourself or someone else.

They may reveal your status but only with your consent and you would have to sign documents giving such consent. In such situations you could give them consent to share as much as you want them to share.

Lets say you have some doubts about a school regulation and due to your status you are worried about asking your counselor or someone that may answer your questions about the regulation because it may have repercussions for you in your situation. The psychologist could ask the question on your behalf and share as much or as little as you tell them to, if they truly feel it will alleviate your anxiety.