i'm unhappy - Page 3

no, i'm depressed. period.


thats the reason i'm leaving. honestly, this job is tiring. mentally, physically, emotionally. but i think i became a better person because of it. it allowed me to see a world i wouldn't have known otherwise. how hard people work to earn money, how people can be so evil because of money. how much hardship my parents went through when we first arrived... it's a crazy world out there. i can't wait to end this chapter of my life.

haha, that actually made me LOL but watever.

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why of course, your highness....

At least you're on your way on getting your Masters! Leave the country once you graduate. A good life awaits you after you leave... I'm doing well in my home country, and just got a new job at a large international hotel chain. I guess I'll be traveling in a few years to any country except America. But that's alright You'll be scared at first when you land in your homeland. But trust me, it will get better as long as you try hard at finding the right kinds of job.

I think the reason for some of the sarcastic remarks is that what you experiencing, though pretty bad, are the exact same things we all on here have either gone through, or are going through or will go through. Of course some of us have it better than others - those who can drive and have a SSN have some semblance of normalcy while there are those among us who have nothing.

All I can do is tell you about my own story. My first relationship was when I was 25 as well though I had met people before that. If you think about it, this is the perfect age for you to meet someone because you still have the cover of college to hide your secret. You have all the tools so the rest is your attitude and confidence all of which are under your control. Even if you're not going to find a LTR, just go out with someone and have fun - you can define fine lol.

Even as a Dreamer, 25 was one of the best periods of my life. Maybe at 46, I'll look back at now and think now was the best, but ask yourself this - When you're old and on your death bed, what would you give to relive just today as a young person.

nah, i'm just playing around..

of course i know what he's going through.. if we don't understand him then who would?

Exactly.

man...we can all relate so do yourself a favor and stop depressing younger generations of dreamers. You and Givemeachance should focus on encouraging others rather than telling people how you are emotionally scarred. Seriously, life ain't easy for a lot of people, that includes USC. Do what you can, take what you can get and move on with your life.

We seriously need Dr. Phil to intervene and help some of these "depressed" dreamers.

what happens is..

as you get older you see your friends having many things going for them and then you start to compare yourself to them and then the reality really starts to hit home..

we don't need no Dr. Phil just pass the f*cking DA.

We all see where you're coming from meehx3, it really is a tough time for Dreamers socially, mentally and emotionally. I do believe that everyone that goes through hardships but stands strong will eventually have good things come their way, that time is coming for everyone on this forum that is for lack of a better phrase "going through hell" right now.

You never know, you may meet your future spouse in a few days/months/weeks/years from now and you may end up having a very long and fulfilling relationship full of happiness, while those getting married now that seem to have it all may end up splitting up a few years down the line. Life can sometimes be funny like that, but it all comes together eventually, stay strong!

It's tough, but I remind myself everyday that things will get better even though they don't seem that way right now, I believe that they will do a 180 degree change for the better at the right time, I just have to take things one day at a time.

I'm currently going thru something similar (I think all dreamers do to some extent) if not worse... Im still struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts but I am getting better.. It reached its zenith a few months ago when I was just crying in my bed for days. I really thought I was gonna kill myself but fortunately I checked myself in to an emergency walk in for counseling at school. Talking to a psychologist and psychiatrist really helped. I told them everything that I had been holding back behind a mask that I was wearing in front of my family and friends. Putting up a facade was giving me an inner conflict to the point that I thought I had a split personality.

Thankfully, God blessed me with wonderful family and friends that are helping me through this. I just wish i opened up to them earlier. Now, I don't have to pretend that I'm happy in front of them...and they'll grieve with me.
I still can't say the simple word "good" and mean it when I'm asked how I am doing but I'm hopeful the day will come.

I will finish my bachelors by the end of September, and then off I will go away from this country. It will be bittersweet. On the one hand, I consider california as my home. I love it here. I will greatly miss my friends that I have made here. I will miss all the great memories I have made here. I will miss the diversity... I will really miss it.
But I'm also glad that I will leave here because that means I can finally have an ID that says that I'm legal. I can finally drive. I can vote! I can talk to people without the fear that they will somehow find out that im an illegal. I can finally travel!! And go on global mission trips.

I try to find something to be happy about or thankful for every day. It helps me to be humble and ...sane. Haha. I think I'm going to go on a mission trip to some third world country after I leave so I can see for myself how lucky I have been, studying at one of the top universities in the world. I want to use the privilege I had growing up in the States to help others.

Lol. Sorry for such a big rant on my part! PM me if you ever need someone to talk to. You're not alone.