break down :(

so i was in the middle of my calc hw when i got stumped on a question and called my friend for help. he tried to help me and i started saying things like "if i was normal, i wouldn't be doing this damn hw right now; i would be working like regular college grads." and it just got me on a roll... and i eventually broke down in tears. he's a citizen and has a job that pays well and is having a pretty fun time doing normal things like driving, traveling, going out, etc. he tried to make me feel better, but all he could say is that everything will turn out ok...

just yesterday i was thinking of how long it's been since i got pretty emotional about my whole situation and then i go and cry today... i guess it's because senate is starting back up again tomorrow... and i'm scared of what this month will bring for us... it may make or break us and i'm terrified of the latter.

sorry guys... i just wanted to vent and know you all understand how i'm feeling... thanks for reading

Dont worry, im sure Dream Act will pass.. You're not the only one who cries, tons of other people are in your situation.

it is ironic because just before i read this post i was thinking something similar, i wondered how will my life be when im finally out in the light not afraid of anything, free to drive, get a job in the career im in, travel, build credit, be asked for my dl and actually having one, just being out there like everybody else... i think the day that they dream act or a comprehensive immigration reform passes, im going to stop what ever im doing, where ever i am and just pour in tears of happiness, is a feeling i have been waiting for all my life, and i always wonder what that day is going to be like... and i guess so far my situation has helped me to appreciate things and make the most out of everything... Now that this crucial days but hopefully the best days are around the corner, it would be nice to hear how ya also feel, i guess is good in the comforting way that there are people out there that understand the feeling.... just dont plan what you are going to type, and just type...

Well, im a guy, and i also cry about it... This situation has stopped me from doing so many things! specially now, that i just entered college... i have to take a bus fro two damn hours just to get there...all of my friends just drive in the freeway for 20 minutes...and they all ask me..."why dont you work and get a car?" They haven't tell me anything, but i know that they think that i'm lazy, or that i get everything from my parents! it's embarrassing... cause i dont even go out to parties or anything like that cause i dont have a car, and in CA, you have to have a car to go somewhere...not being able to drive and work its a big turn off for girls which means that is hard trying to have a normal life, like any other college freshman. and its not about girls or parties i cry about, its about me being 17, without a job, without a car, in a college that i didnt want to go, and without the opportunity to change that in a near future. I know that a lot of you work even though you guys are illegal, but i've picked up several job applications that i never turn in. i'm terrified just to think that i will be caught lying about my SS#! i dont know how to lie, and when i lie, i live in this horrible panic...i know how u feel, and trust me, sometimes i wish i could have someone beside me whom i could trust and tell how i feel about my situation...but i cant because no one knows about this, so i have to swallow that and act like everything's ok.

Tell Me about I'm a guy as well and I know what it is to feel in pain but not mentally, Sometimes I can't control myself and just start sobbing! I feel as if my heart it's being stabbed with a thousand knives at once, As the sunrise comes by I feel like it's night because I'm hiding like the shadow that I am!

I don't know why I get this feeling sometimes That I feel like if am Dead already By the fact that I can't do anything normal, I feel like the only persons that notice me in this world it's my family, and no one else seems to know that I exist!
I hate this feeling, Sometimes I just get so mad at the world and I feel like screaming, And I Always remember one quote one of my teachers always repeated over and over again " Life It's Not Fair" Sometimes I believe this quote with all my soul, But then Somehow I find a light of hope on me that continues to shine!

I hate those people that don't like us, I wish they could just be in our shoes, just for a month so they could see what we go through, But they never see that side They always start talking before even trying to think this over, They feel like only because they were born here they own the country! I wish I could do something to open up their minds and let them see life through our eyes just for once, It's obvious they don't know what pain we go through!

Believe me Harvatica There's plenty of people in your situation as well! The only thing left to do it's never loose hope! NEVER!

I know How you guys feel!

It is hard. It's so hard to cope with these feelings.
They're so oppressing at times. I hold it all in, but
sometimes I just can't stand it any longer and just
let loose. What sets us apart though, is the fact that
once we've let a little bit out, we get back up and
keep on walking. Come on guys! We are strong and
we're gona make it.

ditto!

let's not lose our positive attitude!

I know exactly how you all feel. There are times in my life when I just have to cry...all I tell my gf is that there's something that I can't tell her yet, but when the time comes, I need her to marry me. I wish DREAM would pass so I won't have to go down that road, but if it fails I'll have my insurance policy. It sucks to not be able to travel outside this country...my friends constantly ask me to go to Mexico, but I always lie. No one suspects a thing since i work, drive, go to school, party like rockstar...it's strange that no one seems to ask me about my out of state ID, but I know they've seen it though.

N e way, if DREAM fails to pass this month, I'll have no choice but to set my plan B in motion and get married. I am not going to graduate w/ a promising future but not be able to do anything w/ it. I love my gf, she's gorgeous and would marry me if I asked her today, unfortunately I don't think I'd be completly ready for that step, but that's life. So let's all hope God can grant us the tools we need to ensure a bright future.

Everyone hang in there, it's been a long and very unpleasant ride, but I believe it's gonna end soon.

Thanks guys... it makes me feel better knowing you know what everyone is going through. I do have a pretty optimistic attitude, but once in a while i just break down and can't hold it in anymore. I feel that something good will happen to us this month and I hope i am right. I think we will finally have a chance at a normal life and I'm not giving up if we don't get that chance now.