I need to get married but i dont want to :''(

For real , yo.

I'd like to be single a little longer. I like the single life.
I don't like to be tied down to a woman. It's not even about cheating, sex, or anything.
I am faithful.
I just want to be free. I like freedom too much.
I don't want to get married but I have to.
I hate being illegal.
It's driving me nuts.
Can't be illegal forever.

I will seriously thinking of dedicating this year 100% to bodybuilding and turning into a super chad just to find me a Greencard bearing princess to save me from this DACA purgatory.

This is what this whole immigration thing is doing to me lol

Try to find someone who will respect your freedom. If you look carefully you will see there are people out there that will respect and encourage your individual freedom. Shouldnt have to perceive a relationship like having to be "tied" to anyone.

Try men instead. Things are more STRAIGHTforward and there's less drama.

Also you should make a rap song out of the poetic lyrics you posted and become a YouTube star like Bhad Bhabie.

I used to be like you. I met a lot of girls with some potential but for whatever reason I didn't think we'd be a good match longterm and thought it would be better to be single than in a relationship that may fall apart a couple of years later. First it was "I'm still in my 20's and have my whole life in front of me"...

But then when I got in my 30's things got kind of serious and girls in their 30's or late 20's even weren't missing around. They were looking for someone established without any baggage because they wanted to have the nice big wedding, fancy home, kids, etc. and even without knowing about my Dreamer status, they could pickup that I couldn't do that.

Still, I met some 30 somethings during that time too with some potential but by then, the "dealbreakers" on both side were piling up. There was the whole "I won't ever want kids" thing, or "I'll never get married again or have kids again" types out there.

Now in my 40's, it's a complete shit show. About the only choices are super jaded divorcees in their late 40's either looking for a stepdad or to enjoy the 2nd half of their lives. I guess if I had a lot of money and was super established I could meet someone in their mid-30's too but the Dreamer lifestyle doesn't really afford that luxury.

In retrospect, I could have played the game a little better and not kept it so real while younger. If you have someone in mind now and they might workout, maybe give them and the prospect of marriage a better chance.

Do you have any regret on not getting married earlier when you had the chance? Think about what could have been? Maybe it was all the right choice at the end.

Well in retrospect, I think 100% those people would have been wrong for me longterm. Like when I was 25 I met a 20 year old and thought she was just not serious about life, had a lot of bad habits, no school, etc. but she would be super fun. Around that time I met someone else who I ended up dating for a couple of years before things fell apart, in part due to my lack of status and her family not liking me.

So a few years after that, I wondered "Was I too quick to judge the 20 year old back then? I chose the one with longterm potential and it blew up in my face and wasted 2 years of my prime of life" and then as it would happen I ran into the other girl now in her late 20's and we immediately hit it off and it was awesome for the first couple of weeks, then I would notice that she had even more bad habits like smoking, still not in school, bill collectors calling her at all hours, and she was like kind of racist to boot (Obama had just been elected).

So after a month or so, I kind of had to cut things off though by then she was sick of my shit too. It turned out that my initial "judgement" of her was 100% spot on...it was a great fun at first but no substance.

So now, do I regret not playing the game? Honestly? Kind of. I mean I was still young then and most marriages fail anyway so what if I would have been in a perfect relationship in my 20's or even 30s?

you are not free though, you are a prisoner of this country to might as well change that.

My man, you must have nerves of steel to still go on despite being aged out of DACA 2012. I barely made the age cap by about 6 months. Stay strong!

Thanks, I am trying! Time goes by really fast. I'm guessing you're probably in your late 30's now? I was in my late 30's when DACA first came out. The age limit made no sense other than to try to create sympathy for "young people".

Where were you meeting your women?