sick and tired - Page 2

Originally Posted by 2Face

Look man I definitely need to drill what you're saying into my brain because this is exactly my situation. The problem with me is that I will do exactly what you're saying and carry the exact attitude but only for a few days maybe two weeks at the most and then get back to square one emotionally and have brain farts. I'm not consistent with this attitude. When I break down, I get very angry at my parents and become very irritated at every thing. Recently I've been very afraid of being near my iphone as I fear that I will smash it in anger. The weird thing is that my conscience within is telling me exactly what you're telling us in ur post but I'm just unwilling to act that way. I'm sorry I was just not born with this resilience of staying the course. And yes it is actually an understatement to say that its a nightmare to see your peers move forward after graduating and seeing yourself stuck in one dimension. It is traumatizing. It is so traumatizing that I have lost half of hair from my head. Now before someone starts rambling about how life isn't easy for others either...just understand our situations extra harsh. Citizens and Permanent resident recent graduates definitely have it easier in terms of getting into the job market and advancing. It is difficult to live in a country like America without status.

Originally Posted by elcompa001

i'm sick and tired of playing cat chasing the mouse here in the US i was saving money to go to college next year but everywhere i look there's some sort of law against illegals now they're doing it here in South Carolina , if this law passes i'm just going to pack my stuff and go back to Mexico a country that i barely remember dreamers keep on dreaming because i just can't.

Originally Posted by elcompa001

i'm sick and tired of playing cat chasing the mouse here in the US i was saving money to go to college next year but everywhere i look there's some sort of law against illegals now they're doing it here in South Carolina , if this law passes i'm just going to pack my stuff and go back to Mexico a country that i barely remember dreamers keep on dreaming because i just can't.

Originally Posted by DA User

Why not move to a state that offers in-tuition?

Originally Posted by meehx3

no one is born with resilience to this type of situations. its mind over matter. think of it this way, there are only 2 roads u can go down. 1) blame ur parents, live in denial, have a hard time and in ur case, get bald. or 2) accept that ur here and undocumented, and go on with ur life the best u can.

of course, from time to time, we break down and we go crazy. we call have those days where nothing goes right and ur wondering wth u did to deserve this type of life, but seriously, what can u do? over stressing this issue isn't gonna make anything better. what i suggest is getting a back up plan. i realized that ever since i came up with a back up plan, i can calm down and get back into focus better and faster than before.

seriously folks, sometimes its better to let go of ur pain, anger and stop agonizing on things that u have no control over. i know its hard, but life would be so much less stressful that way. till the day DA passes, lets all try to stay sane and healthy!

Originally Posted by DA User

I am always positive.

Originally Posted by 2Face

And yes it is actually an understatement to say that its a nightmare to see your peers move forward after graduating and seeing yourself stuck in one dimension.

Originally Posted by iDream

Im surprised that most of you guys feel the same way about this. I too get upset with my parents and sometimes, well no most of the time get very upset over everything. Im so stressed out on how things are that sometimes i just wanna give up. I feel so useless. I didnt finish college because i see no point of going through it and wasting all that money and in the long run i wouldnt even be able to use it. Its hard to focus when youre carrying this burden that you know you have no fault. Yes i do have a job but it doesnt pay much. My salary is probably just change compare to any of you guys. I dnt know, i want something more. I do wanna go to college and finish up. Shit im 23 and working on this low wage job. I want to make something happen. But again like i said its hard to focus on school when youre bombarded with negative thoughts every single fucken day. You know the saying "everyday is a new day" well shit not to us. Its the same shit different day. I feel left out from my friends. I see them enjoying their lives And im here stuck at home living a daily routine. Wake up - Go to work - Go home - check DREAMACT. Info (hoping for some good news) - then TRY MY HARDEST TO GET SOME SLEEP! - but cant so i end up tiring myself out stayin up late thinking and wondering why is this happening. Then wake up tired and do the same shit.