Losing hope :(

I'm losing so much hope for DA. I need it just as much as most of you do, but everyday that goes by.. I feel a little more rejected by the USA. I can't live this way forever. I was brought here when I was 10, not that young but young enough to adjust to this life and what this place has to offer. I have dreams of going to the military if the DA passes, but my backup plan which seems the most realistic at the moment is to go back to Mexico and use what i've learned and gathered here.
If I leave, I want to do it volunteering and not get deported. As of now I plan to wait for DA till around winter of next year, and if nothing happens I will go to plan B which is going back.

I also think that living in a big city such as NYC(Brooklyn) would be better than it is here. No need to drive, its such a tourist place that they won't frown upon passports as a form of I.D. like they do here in NC.
I'm just speculating that NYC would be better.. maybe that can become plan B and Mexico plan C.

Good day fellow Dreamers.

You seem to have in figured out.. Just take a minute to figure out what you really want from life.. NYC might be good option for you.. there are other dreamers here that live in NY.. But you also have to ask yourself if you wanna be in the shadows forever if DA doesn't pass. Maybe you can try out NY for a few years and if nothing happens go with plan C.

Good luck.