Worst part of being illegal?

What do you guys consider to be the worst part of being illegal?

Mine is not being able to travel out of the country and come back. I would love to visit my homeland and I used to get so depressed that I couldn't study abroad. It was a dream. I hate seeing people going on vacations and I'm just stuck here.

lack of motivation...shit's followed me north..

Well I moved here when I was 9, grew up in the suburbs of NY. Grew up with some good friends....years passed by and i realize all the opportunities I missed out on because of the situation we are in and as well as the fear it brings. I'm in college now about to graduate in a year, all my friends now have internships, jobs, plans for the future.....and me.....same old person that came here 12 years ago....nothing has changed.....the worst part is feeling that hopelessness....the part that our lives are in the hands of people who are one of two things, racist....or power hungry people.

It also sucks to have people who support you tell you that things will get better when in the back of your mind you feel that they are wrong....that for some reason things won't get better yet we carry on each day as if it will.

Don't get me wrong...we still live in one of the best countries to live but at the price of what?

The worst part for me is that I have no social life, it's like I don't exist. It's either am home or at work. Since middle school I tried so hard to keep a low profile, I think I did myself a disservice. I'm a extremely "covert illegal"

->feeling like a waste of life/space
-> depression
-> anti-social
-> envy of people who actually get to do what they want to do
->not living "normal" lives
-> always fearing/worrying what tomorrow brings
-> not progressing

I think that sums up pretty much a lot...

that hit home....but now that I think about it, anxiety was a big one....i've now replaced that with stress.

1.all the negative feelings and thoughts that human can get hits us...
2.knowing that i'm stuck and can't solve the problem.
3.realizing that there are so many opportunities but not for me...
4.forgetting the fear of death

all the damn conflicts

I cannot get a really good job.

Worse than being used in a game of political football?

^This is me. Work, church or home. And I feel like I have some sort of social anxiety disorder from all of these years of having to hide my status from everyone. I'm always having to keep people at arms length because when they get too close they start asking questions that I either can't answer or have to lie about. So, it's just easier for me to not have relationships.